March
2013
Important Dates0
I have been thinking about you all. I feel like I live by dates and I am guessing everyone does in some way. The most important date…. July 6, 1994. The day Bailey was born. The second date…March 27, 2012. The day our lives changed….amputation day. The day I was told maybe 4 – 6 months with chemotherapy. Someone might have mentioned 9 months, but I only heard four months. Was I going to amputate my best buddy’s leg, put him through some weird alternate reality, chemotherapy and sickness for months.
Was it for me or was it for him?
Decision made.
It was for both of us. I needed to do everything for him as he had been everything for me for 17 years. He was always my support and I needed to be his. He snuggled with me at night when I was scared, he licked my tears when I cried and he danced around the room with me when I was happy.
He wasn’t ready to die…I can tell this every day I come home and he jumps up wagging his tail to greet me….I can tell this every day when I see him outside with his head up in the air enjoying the breeze or the sun….I can tell this every day when he grabs a toy and plays tug-a-war with…and I can tell this when I wake up with him snuggled up next to me and he gives me a kiss. Do I worry? Yep, every day,but boy oh boy I wouldn’t change my decision. As we again look forward to another important date…March 27, 2013, a one year ampuversary, I hope that other people who have to make this decision find this website.